Can I have a do-over please?  Auditions should come with second chances.  I was just sooo nervous all of a sudden, for no apparent reason.  I love my monologue and I was looking forward to doing it really fabulously and I just didn't.  It wasn't terrible but it was rushed and a little one-note.  The very nice director gave me some very simple redirection on a part of it and I did my best, but I just don't feel like I nailed that either - just an off day.  I'm starting to sense that I get more nervous for theatre auditions - wonder why that is?  Guess I just need to do more of them.  Oh well, trying to move on - but still, damnit, I wanted a good crack at that role.  Shit.

I think I'll go play a video game for a while - get my mind off it.  Stupid audition.